watchout!!

duuuuh!!!
lagi ga mood ngapa-ngapain nih
bawaannya pengen ngamuk aja tapi gampang sedih dan mewek kalo ada hal-hal yang menyentuh hati *gawat nih PMS gw kumat :'(


*mending blogwalking aja deh kalo gini....

mestinya ga gw klik

paraaaaaahhhh...
PMS gw kumat lagi!!!
menye2 banget gw hari ini, aaarrrrrggghhh....*sebellll*
gara2 semalem gw gabisa nahan emosi gw buat ga ngeklik (yg gapenting!!) jadi kebawa sampe sekarang, dampaknya today i'm feeling so blue...

thx bgt buat Janu and also Dedy (good frens of mine) yang dah rela gimme some advices malem2 buat nenangin gw by phone..*thx so much guys, kl gaada lo, i'm sure i couldn't sleep well last nite*

realizing that when this feeling was gone, everything seems soooo wrong
I know it makes no sense but for some reason i just believe it
I'm so fed up with my thoughts of u and your memory
and how the things remind me of what we used to be

pleaseee get away from my life, i'm so tired of this tears..*sigh*
Wish like hell I could go back in time and totally ignore u when u try to get close to me
coz common sense knows that you're not good enough for me but i keep movin' on..*sob*

i hope i can be strong, stronger than before, aminnn
aaaaaaaaaaannnd, get my period soon, rite awayyyyy, amiiin aminnn, amiiinnnn...*crying*

so tired

saturday nite and i'm here in my best fren's house
talking about everything that happened to me recently
i was telling her that i was dreaming about u when i take a nap today
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh, i really wanna scream out loud!!!
i don't want it
i really don't want it
but it come over me over and over again

i'm so tired
so damn tired of the-terrible-thing-that-should-have-gone-forever-from-my-entire-life-and-never-ever-want-to-remember-it-no-more!! *sigh*

please get away from my life...
i'm so sick of it,enaff ya enaff!!!!*sigh*


it seems like i'm the stupiest gal who's waiting for nothing
i know that it's been a while since i tried so hard to move on
but when i realized i knew that it's not that easy, hiks..


haaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh, i have to wake up, have to!!!
that's what u want me to do
i knew ca, u want me to open up my eyes and face the reality*sigh*
duuuh, ko gw melow bgt yah dah 3 hari ini, parah bgt nih PMS-nya (gw tau banget ini semua dampak dari PMS gw yang bikin gw menye2 bgt)
niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiisss, injek kaki gw buruan doooooongggg!!!!
sebeelllll, kesellll, iiiiiiighhh kelewatan nih, cepetan dateng ke periodnya supaya gw ga norakk gini...
beneran gaenak bgt rasanya*sob*


but there something i have to be so grateful
thx God, u blessed me
i got a great family and a lovely fren arounds me

well, hope everything will get better soon...

hopeless

i know i ain't good enaff

but i've tried my best

and i'll never ever regret it

kenapa yah gw, masiiiiiiih aja begini ga pentiiiiiing!!!!

Ya Allah, please please please help me..*sambil menye2 realizing kl PMS gw bener2 messed me up!! aaaarrrrggghhh*

hampa

jaz feeling empty inside
still thinking of u
so many why running thru my head
i don't want it
but i know i can't

i still see u on my mind
dunno why but i hate it
i tried to get over u
a million times
but i know i can't

i jaz wanna move from this terrible moment
i wish i can

bukan gw, bener...

pengen nangis rasanya nyari dokumen ga nemu2!
mesti dicari kemana ya invoicenya, hikshiks
gaada yg mau ngaku, gw juga enggak laaaah..*lah wong gw ga megang
sumpah yah gw ga ngerasa nyimpen tuh dokumen, definitely not me...
tapi gatau ada dimana invoicenya!!

Ya Allah, please help me thru it...*sambil nangis kesel sendiri krn bingung gatau-mau-ngapain-lg-padahal-dah-ngubek-ngubek-folder-tapi-tetep-ga-nemu-juga!!*

sebel igh..

gaenak banget deh sore ini
kenapa yah?
iiiigh, ga jelas bgt sih gw
pengen makan tapi males padahal laperrr
trus gw ajak si sutik aja buat turun cari cemilan apa aja ke samping gedung isat

mei : makan yuk
mei : laper deh
mei : bosen gw diruangan mulu
tik : masyaallohh....
tik : tadi bilangnya kenyannngggg
tik : emang tadi baked potatonya ud abiss?
mei : udah
mei : sekarang starving
tik : ahhh...kamu si tadi gaya2 an ga makan..
tik : trs emang mau kemana?
mei : turun
mei : bete nih
tik : jgn bt dnk
tik : turun kemana?
tik : ke samping?
mei : ho oh
mei : gw lagi bete nih
mei : gatau kenapa
mei : aneh
tik : mw dapet?
mei : kayanya sih gitu
tik : y ud yukk
tik : tapi di t4 aku lg g ada orang denk
tik : gmn dumz
mei : iiiiigghhhh, cabut aja yuuukkkk
tik : ga ada orang...
tik : mas an lg turun jg
mei : iiiiiiiiiiighhhh
tik : kamu jg sedih dnkkk
tik : kamu ksini aja dulu
mei : gamaoooooo

doooooh, tapi beneran deh gw lagi ga bangett sore ini,sebelll bgt bawaannya

padahal tadi pagi gpp deh, fine fine aja masa tiba2 bete ga karuan gini!!

bener2 deh PMS lagi nih, aaaaaaaaaarrrrrgggghhhh, pengen makan orang nih kayanya...!!

astaghfirullah, kenapa gw jadi gahar gini yah
mau pulang tp mesti nungguin ade gw dulu...


coba ada yg bisa manjain gw gitu
sayang2in gw, manjain gw, ngertiin gw...hiks hiks *ngareppp bgt ada someone who can take me as i am, sincerely *koq jadi curhat sih,iiigh!!
tau ah, sebeeellll
Ya Allah, please forgive me...

pms lagi pms lagi...

December 15, 2007

PMS here i come
sebel kl dah mulai PMS lagi bawaannya sensiiiiiiiiii bgt
mestinya bisa fun all day long tapi jadi beteee seharian apalagi saat itu Rio susah bgt dihubungin dan baru ada kabar sabtu sorenya,gilaa gw dah kwatir ketar ketir karena takut kenapa2 sama dia trus ditambah PMS yg bikin gw jadi over negative thinking
gw bener2 takut dia pingsan or got accident somewhere trus gaada yg tau, hiks gila nyiksa bgt rasanya
mana anti ceritain kl Husen(cowonya) pernah ky gitu dan ternyata masuk RS, pingsan dan baru telpon anti malemnya setelah siuman dan lihat ada puluhan missed call dari Anti di HPnya
sumpah, rasanya tuh bikin gw gabisa mikirin hal yg lain even gw pgn have fun bgr temen2 gw, but it's hard to make up my mind that Rio was jaz fine at that time..
now i know that i really care about him...
but syukurlah Rio gpp, ternyata dia cuma ga sempet angkat telpon gw karena lagi ribet aja,phiuuuuhh
maafin aku ya sayang, i didn't call u when u ask me to called cause i'm so so so angryyyy,rrrrggghhh..it was so miserable inside and i feel so sorry..
please don't do dis to me anymore dear, it drives me insane *especially when i'm on PMS

bad monday!!

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrggghhhh......
bete, sebel, kesel, dongkol, pokonya pengen marrrrraaaaah...!!!!
gimana ga dongkoooolll kl meja gw berantakan bgt, tumpukan hard copy surat2 masuk bertebaran dimana2, dah gitu puluhan email belum gw buka
baru gw tinggal training 3 hariiiii aja dah beginiiii!!
tau gitu mending gw over time hari sabtu kemaren
whoaaaaaaaaaa bener2 bad monday morning, hiks...
secara lagi PMS jg, jadi bawaannya sensiiii bgt
astaghfirullah, jadi ngeluh gini yah tapi mang ga banget deh hari ini, muka gw dah manyun gini aja masiiiiih ada yg iseng minta ini itu ga penting...*uuuuuuggghhh, ga ngerti apa pendingan gw segini banyaknya...!!!
but suddenly, siang tadi gw dipanggil sama pak Rambe untuk keruangannya
gw kira ada apaan, ternyata dia mau ultah besok, hehehe lucu juga ngasih tau gwnya, sempet cekikikan sama babeh karena dia agak sebel krn gw as her secretary gatau kl dia ultahnya tuh bsk,hueheuhuehueheue...
aaaaaaaaaaaand requestnya gw mesen makanan buat all Group HCM besok pagi, haaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh besok pagi? mepet bgt kan waktunya, belum lagi menunya minta yg ga biasa lagi, lah piyeeeeeeeeeeeee ikii???
pusing laaaah gw, cari sana sini menu yg pas, akhirnya decide order sate ayam dan lontong, jajanan pasar dan es buah seugeeeerrr,slurup sluruuuuuuuupphhh...
awalnya gw dapet referensi untuk order ke Primasari Catering, tapi berhubung mahal dan servicenya kurang professional akhirnya gw berpaling ke Rosita Catering yang lebih cooperative and cepet servicenya, dan ternyata mang dah langganan sekretaris Isat juga jadi dapet kortingan deh...

well well...dengan paket lengkap kap kap dan sesuai pula dengan budget uang belanja dari babehkyuuuu getoooh,huehuehuehue....*puaaaaaassss deh pokonya...
meski masih bersungut2 karena PMS, tp akyu senang krn siang ini Rioku sayang telpon, jadi reda deh segala amarah,dongkol, sebel2an, muram durja,dkk ...*thx ya sayangkuuu...luv u soooooo much....

well, that's all for today
hope tomorrow'll be better than today...